Christmas Day 2011

Christmas Day 2011

 Happy Birthday Jesus! Merry Christmas to all of you!

 That’s about ALL of the Christmas cheer that I have. 

Ethan had a great Christmas.  Chris and I enjoyed seeing his little eyes sparkle as he beheld his gifts.

 During the stillness of the day, I couldn’t help but weep again. I made Christmas dinner…I cried as I washed the chicken.  There were tears in the potato salad but I believe all of the other food was tear-free.

We had several calls and text messages from our friends and family but I didn’t return any phone calls until hours later. The call from my Daddy ignited the waterworks. Just hearing him tell Chris & I that he loved us was the queue.

We spent a lot of time outside with Ethan this afternoon. He has a wagon that he absolutely loves and does NOT want to get out of.  We wheeled him up and down the street countless times. He was so happy and the look on his face was absolutely priceless.

My sister came over with my nieces and nephew. I love them so much. Seeing them so happy made my heart glad…and I cried! We visited my Mom’s house and seeing her so happy to shower Ethan with gifts made me happy…and I cried. However, I thought about how she’d be doing the same thing for Grayson…and I cried.   I was crying for most of our visit at her house.  I tried to conceal the tears at first and walk away or wipe my face when no one was looking. The tears were falling faster than I could wipe.  I couldn’t hide it anymore. Moma hugged me several times and with each hug….I cried more!  The very fibers of my soul are unraveling….

 Despite all of my tears today, I am thankful that we have a Savior (who is no longer a baby but is Lord & King) who understands the hurt that we feel & understands every tear that we cry.  Thank you Jesus!