Thursday, March 8, 2012

3 months...

Three months ago today, I met Death (again). I met Pain (again).I held Israel Grayson for the first time. I remember being prepped for the c-section. I remember the deep, hollowness of my cry of despair. I remember watching the clock tick towards 4:00pm, the time of my c-section. I released so many tears that day.  I left like I was going to the execution chamber and in many ways I was.

 My grief is not as raw as it was 3 months ago. However, I am not the same person that I was. ANOTHER piece of me has died and I am forever changed.

 Happy 3 months birthday Israel Grayson.  Love you…miss you…and long to hold you again!
Grayson's footprints

Lock of Grayson's hair

Bracelets

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