Times.....

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times; it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness; it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity; it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness; it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair; we had everything before us, we had nothing before us; we were all going directly to Heaven, we were all going the other way." – Charles Dickens


Have you ever felt like this…. Everything is great and awful at the same time? Today is really one of those days with no extreme highs and no frigid lows , just questionable mediums. My mind has been in overdrive today and I can’t quite seem to down shift. My thoughts have not been about our daughters but mostly about life and people in it.

This weekend has been exceptionally wonderful for me. I have spent time with people that I love the most, my family! Man, we have had such fun! I felt at such peace being in a room with generations of wise people who I knew genuinely loved each other, had no motives, intentions, or ill will toward the other. We shared good food, meaningful embraces, unforgettable laughter, and time that passed all too fast. It was the best of times.

In the midst of the “highs” , the “lows” invade my space like the dark, howling winds of a hurricane. I am compelled to process these thoughts in my head, less I let them overtake me. I grieve the hollowness of meaningless chatter and actions laced with motives arrayed in the wardrobe of comradery. I grieve for words misspoken or never spoken at all. I applaud the few who seek the light of truth. I grieve for those who feel safe in darkness of lies. It was the worst of times.

Lord, You are an infinite God without end or beginning. Not only are you aware of all I have ever been or experienced, you are aware of all there is to come. In fact, You have already been there and know me…know all I have experienced from moment to moment. You have experienced my life in an intimate way even to the numbering of the hairs on my head. Every detail of my life is important and valuable to You. Though I am constrained in my thinking as it relates to time, You are not. The greatest hindrance to not living a life outside the constraints of time is to see it limited and unyielding…to see time as having no potential outside of the moment. To do so eliminates all consequences and blessings resulting out of time based actions on my part. Time is eternal and I must see it as such. What I do in time affects the times to come; therefore, it has eternal consequences both good and bad.

Teach me to see beyond the moment into a realm where there is no time so I can put more value on what I do at any given time. Teach me to see everything I do with eternal eyes. As I do this, what I participate in or don’t participate in will change in order to bring about the most effective change.