December….

I really wanted to bypass the Christmas season all together and go straight into the new year. There were so many milestones in December. I knew that this would be an emotional month and I just didn’t want to deal with it!!!

• Milestone 1: Destiny’s 2nd angel Birthday on December19 th

• Milestone 2: Madison’s due date on December 22nd

• Milestone 2: Briauna’s due date on December 28th

Now do you see why I wanted to jump into January???? I had already prepared myself to get the sackcloth and ashes and to basically be miserable for 31 days. I had anticipatory depression & panic attacks. Thankfully, the Lord spoke to me at work and reminded me that I had control over my emotions and that I could command the day with good thoughts. Hummm, “how so”, I wondered. I counted the number of days between Milestone 1 &milestone 3.I decided that we’d have a theme for each day. The theme would be our prayer focus & there would be a coordinating scripture to go along with it. On the milestone day, we’d recognize each daughter by making a card or writing a letter to her. So, here is our plan to help us thru the milestones…

10 Days of Remembrance & Prayer


Day 1

Saturday, December 19th        Destiny & Faith         Hebrews 11:6



Day 2

Sunday, December 20th                  Healing                 Exodus 15:26



Day 3

Monday, December 21st                 Joy                   Nehemiah 8:9-12



Day 4

Tuesday, December 22nd              Madison & Hope              1 Tim 4:8-11



Day 5

Wednesday, December 23rd              Friends                      John 15:15



Day 6

Thursday, December 24th                   Family



Day 7

Friday, December 25th                        Jesus Christ               Isaiah 9



Day 8

Saturday, December 26th                    New Beginnings            Isaiah 43:19



Day 9

Sunday, December 27th                      Thanksgiving              1 Chronicles 16:8



Day 10

Monday, December 28th               Briauna & Love              1 Corinthians 13


Thankfully, this plan worked for us. We were able to get our minds off of the grief & pain & be reminded of God’s word and His promises to us. We definitely have a new tradition. The best part about this was making our cards for the girls. Chris & I each made a card for each girl, shared our thoughts with each other, and put the card in the Christmas stocking. We plan to make new cards each year. I’ll have to admit that this was the1st Christmas since 2007 that I really had peace, hope, & joy.

Our Christmas lists were minute compared to years past. Because of the experience that we had at Thanksgiving, we realized that it was so much more important to give than for us to receive. A few weeks before Christmas, Chris asked what I wanted for Christmas…I said, “ A baby”,,,, We both just laughed. Then he asked, “ what do you want for your birthday?” I said, “ A baby”,,,, and laughed again because my birthday is in SEPTEMBER!!!! I didn’t know that he would need such a head start on the birthday gift.